I can say that underneath the miles of pain that I feel, I truly feel a river of peace because I know that my Heavenly Father has a very specific plan for what is going on and He will help us through it. I know that in the next life I am still Case's mom and will always be.
I won't lie...watching Case go through this and imagining life without Case is more unbearable than can be imagined. Remember the last time you had a major case of the butterflies in your stomach, and remember the last time you had that awful pit in your stomach? I have both of those inside me at all times...and that's on a good day. Bad days can't be described.
Yet I have to keep going. My favorite quote in that article is the following:
The greatest gift we can give those on both sides of the veil is to move forward with our heads held up in faith and hope in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, even if each step is taken with tears streaming down our faces. For we are promised that “the grave hath no victory, and the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ” (Mosiah 16:8). One day “the Lord God will wipe away tears from off all faces” (Isaiah 25:8).
How beautiful and true are those words? I will keep trying to do that.
p.s. if you are not a member of the church I belong to, you may not be familiar with one of the books of scriptures referenced above. I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, or aka Mormons. In addition to the Holy Bible, we have the Book of Mormon, which is where the book of Mosiah (referenced above) is found. Please click here to find out what the Book of Mormon is. I would love to go into detail, but I feel lucky to find time even to post this tonight!
p.s. if you are not a member of the church I belong to, you may not be familiar with one of the books of scriptures referenced above. I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, or aka Mormons. In addition to the Holy Bible, we have the Book of Mormon, which is where the book of Mosiah (referenced above) is found. Please click here to find out what the Book of Mormon is. I would love to go into detail, but I feel lucky to find time even to post this tonight!
Even amidst all the pain and trials and heartache you are the one comforting all of us. Thank you for sharing your faith and your testimony with us. You are truly in inspiration to all around you and I feel privileged to be your friend! I fasted and prayed specifically for peace for you and X today and I know those prayers were answered. Peace can only come through Jesus Christ and He will surely give it to those who turn to Him and have faith in Him. We love you all so much.
ReplyDeleteEm, thanks so much for sharing this. I felt the Spirit so strongly, and was comforted as I read your post as well as the wonderful article from the Ensign.
ReplyDeleteHow can I even stop the tears from flowing! I have to agree with Heidi and your brother, with everything you are going through you turn around and comfort those around you. Case has come to such a special home and is such a special spirit of our Heavenly Father's. We as well fasted and prayed for you and I know that Heavenly angels are with you. You are forever Case's mommy and daddy, and you are all blessed to have each other. We all love you and our hearts are with you!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful, Emily. You are amazingly strong. I'm sure you don't always feel that way, but you are. Case is so blessed to have such a good and faithful mother. He has such a special and strong spirit and will continue to touch and bless the lives of others no matter what happens. Our love and prayers are with you all.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is heavy reading and thinking about all that sweet Case and your family is having to go through. I am so grateful you found solace in that beatufiul story from the Ensign. Thank you for sharing the link...I needed to read that article!
ReplyDeleteI hope you realize that you are blessing hundreds (if not more) people as you take the time to update your blog and share your heartfelt feelings with all of us about your worries, heartaches and pain. You continually remind me, and all who read your blog of the importance of trusting in the Lord and remaining faithful, even when things aren't going the way we'd hope.
I pray that you will be comforted continually by the Lord through this incredibly difficult time. I know that He is mindful of your needs and hope that you will feel His love and support in abundance.
We love and adore you Beckham family. You are always in our prayers. xoxo
Glad you posted this. I can't understand what you guys are going through. But my heart goes out to your family. That boy and your family ... such an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. We love you guys.
My favorite line in the article was, "The despair did not linger..." We send our love and prayers your way :)
ReplyDeleteLove,
The Gorgueiros